Sunday, 17 December 2017

STYLE SUNDAY// COSY CASUAL


JUMPER-TOPSHOP (£35)
JEANS- PRIMARK (£12)
BOOTS- PRIMARK (£16)
PHONE- IPHONE 6S+ 

I am loving putting together outfits like this, something so simple but it can look like it has been thought out. Realistically this outfit was literally flung together because we had to leave really quickly and I was trying to get Erica organised as well as myself, and I just managed to look half presentable with a nice outfit. My hair had to suffer and just be put in a half up half down style for that day. I really like how it turned out, and was unexpected to have it look good.

Keep up to date with Instagram for outfits on a regular basis, you will see them first on there. Check here for the details!!

Fiona xx



Tuesday, 5 December 2017

8 WEEK POST PARTUM BODY




Well this is a post I really wasn't expecting to write so soon, and definitely not including pictures but here I am. As of Thursday I was 8 weeks post partum and it has went in so quickly and also slowly at the same time. My baby girl Erica is changing everyday and I can't quite believe she was in my tummy, she has just gotten so big, has started smiling and is definitely becoming her own little person. It's the most magical thing seeing her grin uncontrollably at me and Harry every day, I can't quite believe it sometimes that she is our little girl. 
As I have said in previous posts throughout my pregnancy I found body image hard to get to grips with and even now I'm still struggling, which you wouldn't think after posting my underwear pictures up on Instagram. But I have been struggling to get to know my new body and get used to my stretch marks, yes I had some from growing in high school but these stretch marks are a lot deeper and more pronounced. I shouldn't let it get to me because with having them I have gained a gorgeous daughter so it shouldn't matter but it does. Since it has only been 8 weeks since I gave birth I am keeping away from exercise and dieting until after new year, this will give my body plenty of time still to recover properly back to my normal self. I am very much looking forward to getting into my gym gear and feeling good about myself again. If any of you have any good youtube videos for easy and quick exercises then please dm me on Instagram or Twitter, having a little one is making it hard to have some me time. I am slowly doing small aspects of working out, dancing when Erica is restless so I rock her to lots of different music and also doing some small squats, but I can only manage 5/6 as it can be uncomfortable sometimes with my stitches/scarring from labour. But bring on the new year for a fresh start mind, body and soul.

Fiona xx

Sunday, 26 November 2017

Tuesday, 21 November 2017

NEW BORN ESSENTIALS// FIRST WEEK


This is a small post on my first week new born essentials, these 4 things helped me so much when our little one was first born so I highly recommend all of these and I can Imagine at least one will help a new mum in some way.

Painkillers
I honestly don't know what I would have done without pain killers in the first week. I had to get stitches on my down stairs so as you can imagine or have experienced it was extremely painful. I was so uncomfortable and all I could do for a week plus was sit on the couch and not do anything. It was hard a lot of the time because I wasn't able to interact with my new baby and enjoy her. All I was, was the milk bar and I spent many days feeling down and upset about not being able to change her nappy or anything. Luckily with having pain killers and salt baths made me start to feel more myself and I could get back to normal more quickly which definitely helped my feelings in regards to looking after my baby.

Nipple Cream
This was a life saver for me. In the beginning I'm not going to lie breast feeding wasn't easy for me. Due to having Diamorphine during labour both me and Erica were absolutely shattered, which then made it difficult to feed my new baby. Erica wasn't latching properly and I had been awake for just under 2 days so you can only understand how difficult it could be. My nipples were really badly cracked and painful. But with in a day of applying nipple cream they started to heal and made it so much easier to feed my little one. It was such a big goal for me to breastfeed my new baby and those first two days I felt so useless and miserable not being able to and having to use formula. She had no problem with formula which was great and using formula in general isn't a problem either because they have everything that they need in them and they are so close to breast milk. But because my labour didn't go to plan and now breast feeding seemed like it wasn't working I became really upset and was really hard on myself. But thankfully using the cream consistently after every feed my nipples adapted and Erica started to latch properly and both combined made it easier every day to feed and I can now say I am still solely breastfeeding 6 weeks later and I'm so proud of myself for getting this far and sticking with it even though it was extremely tough in the beginning. If you go through a time like I did, don't be hard on yourself you are only doing the best you can, and it can be extremely tough and hard work. The last thing you need when you're exhausted is feeling like you are not doing the right thing (which I did), just remember you are doing the best job in the world and thats being a mother. Do what suits your body and lifestyle and try and not listen to anyone. I know it is easier said than done because I know how it can be, but looking back I know my baby and as long as she is happy and healthy thats all that matters.

Lip Balm
Another must have, but this wasn't just a post delivery thing I normally have really dry lips and when I was in labour they seemed to get overly dry due to gas and air and general dehydration. So I have been using this Nivea one, Nivea is always a good go to moisturiser in general it definitely does what it say and with it being around for such a long time you can't really fault it can you? So if you suffer from dry lips especially during the winter months go and pick one up!

Dummy
Now I know this is something not everyone is in favour of, but a dummy was our life saver. I was very resistant in giving Erica one in the beginning and we had been home for a few days and she really wouldn't settle at all. We knew she had been fed, changed and everything that she needed but just kept crying. I finally gave in and she took it straight out my fingers pretty much and went straight to sleep. We got a pretty good few hours sleep that night and we haven't looked back. She doesn't always favour the dummy but sometimes when she just needs a cuddle and something to comfort her she will take it to drift off to sleep and normally spit it out once she is in a deep sleep. If she needs fed there isn't even a chance of her taking the dummy, she just wants the boob and she will cry and cry until she gets it. I normally catch the signs early enough but sometimes she is just too fussy. The dummy is a great tool and it works wonders for us, but every baby is different and sometimes you just need to call to their needs.

So those are my first week new born essentials, leave a comment and/or message me on Instagram or Twitter to tell me if you have a new born essential that I should try out!

Fiona xx

Saturday, 18 November 2017

RECENTLY ON INSTAGRAM #7

Well it's been a pretty long time since I have wrote a recently on Instagram post and there has been so much since the last one thats for sure! My last post was a year ago and if you had told me then that in a year I would have a house with the most amazing guy and have a baby with him I would probably laugh and say you were kidding on. It has been the most crazy year and yet the most amazing. 


This first picture is showing off a new hair style that I'm now rocking, during my pregnancy I experienced a lot of hair loss due to hormones, and by cutting it into a short bob it has really made my hair feel fuller and look a lot healthier. With now having a little one it is extremely easy to manage and sometimes I just leave my hair naturally and have it some up and some down so the hair is out my face, it makes it even more easy as I don't even need to apply heat, just some moose and/or sea salt spray to hold the curl and lessen the fizz. So I am really enjoying it at the moment.
(sorry for terrible picture quality, I don't know what happened)








Obviously you guys know that mine and Harry's daughter was born on the 5th of October, and she has definitely fitted into our little family so amazingly it was almost like she was here this whole time. I can't believe that she now weighs 9lb 12oz, my little baby is growing so quickly I can't quite believe it. She has already outgrown her newborn and up to one month baby clothes and nappies, how did this happen? The six week growth spirt is definitely upon us and I am definitely noticing it, it makes me quite emotional. Everyone and their auntie has told me that I need to cherish these early stages because it disappears so quickly, now I get what they mean. Im just blinking and shes changing, I just hope its not too quickly that I blink and she's at school.
 Please keep an eye out on Snapchat and Instagram for continued pictures of our little family life.




Autumn has to be my most favourite season of the year, clothing, make up and nail colours are up there too with my faves. It was always my grans favourite season and it brings me closer to her when it comes around in September/October. Normally any first signs of Autumn I get my chai latte out and paint my nails this lovely copper/brown shade and take the odd picture of the leaves on the trees. In my opinion Autumn in Scotland has to be the best with the scenery and beautiful countryside. I have slacked in my autumn leave pictures and things this year due to having a few weeks with hardly being on social media with having a baby and things, but I am finally back in full swing with everything and back into picture taking for you guys! 




Having a baby and being pregnant most of this year has definitely made me feel like I didn't have a style anymore and made it difficult for me to feel good about myself. Fashion is a big part of my life, and has been since as long as I can remember, so being restricted in what I could wear brought me down a lot and made me feel like a ten tonne tessy. But now I am starting to feel more like myself and having lost my baby bump and loosing my pregnancy weight gradually, clothing and everything is suiting me a lot better and Im getting a lot more interested again. When I was pregnant I never bought anything hardly unless I had to mainly because I got too big for all my clothes, but now I can get things that compliment my shape better and enjoy fashion again. 
So please keep an eye out for my style sundays and any other outfit of the day posts over on my Instagram. If you have any good buys or trends that I could test out this autumn and winter season please leave a comment down below or message me on either Instagram or Twitter and I will be more than welcome to try them out. Any inspiration is great inspiration for me. 
I'll keep an eye out!!

Fiona xx








Tuesday, 14 November 2017

LABOUR AND DELIVERY STORY




Like I promised in my last post, I'm coming to you with my labour and delivery story. It has definitely taken me a long time to get my head around what actually happened throughout my labour to be honest, and I can say that it will stick with me for the rest of my life. I am not going to lie to you, I have been pretty traumatised with the whole experience, and for something that turns into something so amazing, it definitely is very hard work and so exhausting what the human body goes through, women are amazing!
Due to being almost 2 weeks late in my pregnancy I had been booked in on the 4th of October for my induction by my midwife, so it was good to know I would have my baby soon, but I was extremely nervous. Everything about induction didn't sit right with me, it just seemed really unnatural for my body to go through that, but I knew it would be the only way my baby would make an appearance so it was a must. 
My Induction was booked for 8 am on that Wednesday morning, and I have to say nervous wasn't even close to how I was feeling about what was about to happen. Being pregnant for 9 and a bit months was the easy part, I was then to push this child out and knowing it was probably going to be the worst pain I will go through made it pretty terrifying, but the little person inside my tummy had to come out somehow. So throughout the Wednesday I was on and off monitors for the babys heart beat and was getting checked for positioning, basically it was all not going to plan. I knew it then that it was just going to have something creep up to make things difficult. I was finally induced at 7.30pm, Thank goodness. But I was pretty sure I was going into Labour myself as I was experiencing lower back pain, but I had put it down to being strapped to a bed all day. It was not fun at all. 9pm came and this was the part I dreaded the most, was Harry having to leave me in hospital alone, knowing I will be possibly going into labour very soon and I was, the cramps I was experiencing was very early labour looking back on it. I'm going to be honest with you, I was so scared to stay in hospital by myself and not have him there for support, but I had to due to hospital rules.
Throughout that night and early morning I was definitely experiencing very early labour contractions and I was able to just go with them and not even need to breathe through them, I thought I was handling it well.
From 5.30am on Thursday I was getting steady contractions around every 5 minutes and lasting only a minute I would of said, and by 9am Harry was back with me to help and support me through each one. Thank god for his hands, because squeezing them made each contraction easier, I have no idea why but it helped. 
So for pretty much most of that day it was just a blur and I totally lost track of time, I had 2 baths, cocodamol and diamorphine and then eventually Gas and Air. The cocodamol didn't really do anything, but along with my first bath probably made it a bit easier for me, but after an hour I got fed up and needed to get on my feet. I was then told to have another and I was only in for 5 minutes if you were lucky, I was just in too much pain I needed something stronger. If it wasn't for Harry making me speak up I would of probably just sat in pain, thats the bad part of me not wanting to bother anyone. I was then offered Diamorphine when I really wanted that as a last resort, and take gas and air until that point, but it wasn't available to me as I wasn't in the labour ward. I should of said that before my 2nd bath I was examined at 3cm and my pessary was removed as I was in labour by then. Because I couldn't handle the pain at this point I took the Diamorphine, it was an instant hit and made me feel really weird and light headed, I was then sick which made me need a drip after so I would say the diamorphine only lasted 30-40minutes if that. 
My mum joined us at around 3pm and thank god because having her there for support for both me and harry was so great and I can't thank her enough for that. So after being given the diamorphine I was basically on my feet hanging on to the edge of the bed and Harry's hand every 2-3 minutes with contractions, the pain is like nothing I can compare it to, but by the time one was over I forgot the pain it was a weird experience. I was finally given Gas and Air after I was in so much pain, and you know I totally recommend it to anyone it worked wonders until Erica had arrived. From getting the gas and air my labour then started going very quickly and I was then pushing without realising. I was examined and I was dilated at 9cm, I couldn't believe that I basically managed without really making much fuss.
I was very quickly ready to be wheeled to the delivery room and by the time I reached there I was fully dilated and my waters broke, so I was ready to push. I'm not going to go into too much detail about this part as it was a very traumatic experience for me and still trying to get over it, I might make a post later down the line with what my experience was like and how I have managed to cope with it. What I will tell you was that I needed assistance with my delivery and had an episiotomy and the ventouse was used to bring baby girls head out. But by 10.53pm she was born and I couldn't believe I had my little girl in my arms and to be honest I totally forgot that we were to look at the sex of her, because I was just in awe at the fact I had a baby in my arms it was the most magical moment of my life. As much as I cant bare thinking about what happened I would not change it for the world. Erica Grace Thundow is just such a miracle and me and Harry are so blessed to have her with us in the world.


So there you have it, It's so hard to remember every little detail of how things went as it was such a blur and I was too bust getting through the contractions to care what was going on round about me. I suppose I only really remember the bad parts of it but each labour is completely different and this is my story or the best part of it. If you want to follow me, Harry and baby Erica's new journey please follow me on Snapchat and Instagram. Please leave me links to your labour stories, or if you want to ask me personal questions regarding it theres always Direct Messaging on Instagram or twitter. Thanks for reading!!

Fiona xx